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The man I've loved for thirteen years just told me, essentially, "I still love you but you can never be the woman I need."

I'm... not sure what to feel. Part of me feels like I should be angry, part is confused, and part is still crying. I don't cry often. Once a year maybe.

I feel so... lost. This is the guy who I compared all others to for half of my life. We walked each other through some very difficult times. He understood me where few others ever could and, I thought, I understood him better than anyone.

But I guess I never understood him at all.

It hurts. It really, really hurts.