*sigh*

[tygati]

Most days it's not a problem that depression and bipolar syndrome run on both sides of my family. Significant quantities of chocolate and/or sugar do wonders for boosting one's disposition. But then along comes the wonderful female hormonal imbalance known as PMS and life just flat out sucks. No good reason, it just does.

Toss that atop my general insecurities and current life stresses and today has not been a good day. Can't read, can't write, can't do fsking anything. I had to re-write the beginning to Grey Dragon because it sucked, and at the moment I hate the entire thing and am half tempted to just scrap it completely and give up, but I think I'm just being pissy and I want Maderr to come home and tell me it doesn't suck and that won't happen for another hour and I f*cking hate crying because I am not normally a wussy girly girl and this sucks.

Dear body

I hate you. No love.

Me.

Comments

[mechante-fille.livejournal.com]

*hands you a soft blanket and Peri and extra chocolate hot cocoa and snugs in*

[marasmine.livejournal.com]

I recommend extra chocolate, a furry hot water bottle and a selection of your favourite smutty stories or a good weepy film. It doesn't make it better but it does make it easier to ignore!

[tsaiko.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[chilayse.livejournal.com]

If it helps any I like your dragon stories. ^^' I just got to reading them today...(The only good thing about getting sick is catching up on stories posted all over my friends list.)

[phoenix-rinna.livejournal.com]

That rings rather true for myself as well. I can not only sympathize, but empathize, and I would not wish the sucky mix of what is perhaps the latent bipolar/depression genes mixing with irregular hormone levels? Whatevber it is, I just know it sucks unbelievably and I wouldn't wish the accompanying screwed up emotions on anyone, ever.

Anyway, that was a long way to say I sympathize and feel your pain and also, *hugs*, because hugs are nice.

[arithonrose.livejournal.com]

*petsyou*......I hope you feel better soon

I love the Dragon series ....please don't throw out the Grey Dragon (snigger I'll just bet it is great and you're just not seeing it cos you feel bad)........and I loved Maderr's story giving Deyllgo(did I spell it right) his own human so very cute

I'm reading the other stories you have on your summaries page at the moment...I love Moonlight, so sad.....loved the ending...ah true love

[skylark97.livejournal.com]

*hugs* The crying thing? So part of the hormones. It's why it's so frustrating. You have no control over it. Sometimes I just go off and take a nap because it at least makes the thoughts running circles through my head stop for a little bit.

Hang in there. At least you know what's influencing the mood and that it's warping how you normally think and feel. Even though it doesn't stop you from feeling that way, there's at least the hope that it's temporary, passing and that there's not something inherently wrong with you as a person (because you are a kickass, smart, wonderfully funny and deliciously creative person...the story will come and I'm sure that what you have is better than you think *hugs*).

Take care, you. *huggles*

[kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com]

*offers hugs and love*

[broken-moons.livejournal.com]

*Big, big hugs*